Why do some people love their parents so much while some hate their parents to the bone?
Does the problem lie with the children or the parents themselves?
Sometimes it just leave me walking away baffled.
Are words of an adult reliable; are their words worth the trust to make them the role model of our life.
On the surface they look angelically warm. Yet, time and again, I can't help but this slightest thought will always lead me to a word- insidious.
The wound doesn't show on the surface but it certainly is acutely imprinted, entombed into my deepest darkest side of me. Someone who has been constantly blazed by hell fire, suffocating in the emptiness, gasping for every little oxygen atom he could find.
The torment and agony of love, that is.
But
Why the indignant I feel?
“慈母手中纖，遊子身上衣” 這句話還在這世界存在這嗎？
什麼才叫好父母，那壞父母又是什麼呢？
怎麼會有兒女這麼的愛他們，卻有人把父母恨之入骨。
這是我們無法體諒父母，或父母無法體諒我們？
是我們得包容還是相反呢？
這每次都使我耿耿於懷，不知是好。
他們的話常常自相矛盾，害得我不知是好。
他們的話能當真嗎？ 是我們樹立好習慣的好傍樣嗎？
真的可以依賴与信任嗎？
他們會是我們人生道路上助我們一臂之力的踏腳石
還是在我們人生道路上為害我們生長，搏取我們机會髮芽的紮草？
忽冷忽熱的態渡真讓人生活在像地域試的世界里。
也許這些傷痕表面上都不存在。
但在我內心最深處的心靈裡，隱藏這的傷痕与悲傷是你看不見的。
那怕傷得快致息，死亡的心靈對每一個氧氣都是珍惜的。
你不知到。
The boatload of assignments that are still waiting for me to be completed actually mount to a height surpassing Mt.Fuji. Imagine that's how much work. Geez.
Don't bother about me, I am just exaggerating because I am so attention seeking!
Ivan, you're disgusting! (lame><)
Till then, take good care of yourself!
miss meeeee..... xD
还是决定找个爱我和我爱的人吧，虽然从没找过，但是没做过的事情终有要做的那天的。
只是希望你不难看，但是也不要好看。我的要求就这么简单，可是依旧找不到这样的一个人。
曾经喜欢一个人的生活，根本就没有想过找，所以认识这个圈子的人很少。
人大了一些，看着认识的几个朋友幸福地生活着，
一天晚上我倜然莫名地觉得我似乎很需要一个这样的人来让我爱和来爱我。
可是当我想去找的时候却发现并不是那么容易，
也不知道是我太追求完美还是本来就很难找到一个爱的人。
哎，随缘吧。。。 。。。
我想我所走的这条成长的路，就仿佛走在刀刃上，我是诞生在刀尖上的舞者，
就象眼前这些莹火虫一样在月光下舞蹈。我期待一次妙不可言的奇遇，
和一个令人怦然心动的故事。
可是我的结局或许只有两种——或者向飞蛾扑火样勇往直前，
得到真爱；要不在刀刃上颓废地沉沦，一无所有……
2003年整年，都沉醉于林忆恋这首歌，一直到后来，才发现，
爱的是谁已经不重要，重要的是有一个人在我的青春岁月中刻满了爱
的甜蜜和伤痕，那种酸和痛，永远不可能忘记。
那个人让我明白，精神的结合永远超越身体的结合，感谢这段爱。
学校内的湖畔边有一棵百年老树，树被老藤缠着。远看去仿佛藤长进了树里，
树也长进了藤里。肌理相连，叶脉相通，我中有你，你中有我，
年轮已经交合不可分离。
一次次日出日落，一年年叶青叶黄，岁月被纠缠的曲曲弯弯，
树和藤的结合体被纠缠成了永恒的完美。
有几次那藤和树竟然进了我的梦里，梦中我问树："你苦吗？他回答我：我感到很有力量。
我问藤，你苦吗，他回答我：既相依就直到地老天荒……
我想相互依存就是一切，灵肉结合就是意义。无所谓苦，亦无所谓乐。
苦和乐都成了庸俗的概念……
What do you think about this?
And for those who can understand, feeeel for it.
Faridah: This is way too difficult for me to translate it. lol.
"Suddenly, it feels so real, yet seems so surreal."
This world is full of things that are so alluring, so ravishing and so pleasant
to the eye that temptations can sometimes even cause a person with
a conscious state of mind to fall into. Envisage that forebode
a catastrophe, which is about to befall on us is clear and vivid
Things that's real or surreal have become so real to many people.
The flaws of the fakes have far covered themselves too well.
Sometimes, we will even find ourselves having to struggle
between what's real and surreal; what's right and wrong.
People have indeed lost their ability to differentiate.
Everyday, you see people walking up and down a town bustling with life,
city street full of zeal and fanaticism. But what's beneath?
In this world, everything and anything are all just shows put to impression.
Nothing comes out sincere, not even a slightest bit of it.
People put on sheep's coat to con; people resort to doing evil
to gain fame; people.. people.. people..
What's the use of all these?
Can't all these be peaceful and serene?
See the sakura flower blossom; watch the children play and river flows; etc
But the actual probability would be slim to none.
Everything is so scheming and the people are capricious in their way.
Discrepancy lies beneath the glittering facade of this wonderful world.
Nothing is worth a second look.
Because it's all surreal.
Only in my Father's world, I feel peace and I sense love of the people.
Nothing is enough with just a look.
Because it's REAL.
There's a saying "it's better to be hated for what you are
than to be loved for what you're not."
Disclaimer: This is a fiction story entry. Only true to a certain extent.=))
花样少年少女，真。。。是精彩到极点。 一定要看哦。
心情不知怎样的， 似乎有一种头文字－D 的超快感。太。。 爽了！！
这感觉的的确确是太神奇， 美妙了。而且， 这是我多年遗失的感觉嘞！
人生真是太好了！
哈哈。 多多原谅哦。 一时控制不住的情绪波动， 真是让人受不了啊。
花样少年少女。。
哈哈。 这部偶像剧真的不知要从何说起。
那。。 倒不如你自己上线到“http://youtube.com” 查询 “花样少年少女” 好了。
简单的说， 这部偶像剧其实是在述说一名小女生对一个跳高健将的校园爱情故事。
这个有 S.H.E， Ella 导演 戏中的小女生， 因为爱又超级崇拜，“飞轮海“ 的无尊所导演的跳高健将
而不顾一切女办男妆， 密闯樱开男校。
那。。 是什么原因和力量能让一个单纯的小女生为一个男生那么的着迷呢？
你一定猜想这应该又是另一个"cheesy" 的爱情篇吧。
原因可不只是因为爱那么简单哦， 没那么简单。
这个剧情是你预料又意想不到的。
又可爱又搞笑又。。。哎呀，话不多说，
赶快上网看吧！
好戏正在后头， 别措施良机哦！
啦啦啦！ 后会有期咯！
Who can really give me a pair of listening ears? I don't mind if it's only for loan=))
Sometimes, that's just what I am asking for.
What Psalms 23 is about? Here it is...
The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. (green...: Heb. pastures of tender grass) (still...: Heb. waters of quietness) 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name' sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. (anointest: Heb. makest fat) 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever. (for ever: Heb. to length of days)
You know, getting all ways to avoid and obstinately refuses to face it.
The news was broke out to me early this week. Shawn told me everything. I couldn't believe it.
Just 2 days ago, in the midweek service, the news was revealed to the rest of the teens. Emotions filled the air.
David, my disciple-group member, was diagnosed with a 4th stage Colon Cancer with only 3-6
months of blood left to spend. This piece of news that came so abruptly caught me off my guards. And to face this cruel fact that he is leaving me will never be a choice for me, never will be.
At first, I chose to remain silent about what I really feel and not letting any feelings reveal. Now, it seems like I have a need to. I am glad that this platform exist.
Feelings were hidden beneath, but the various nicknames and blog entries have dug it all out.
To some that might not know, David sat in my bible study, he watch me as I grow and search for my very own convictions. Many guidances of his were deep and insightful. In him, I found the love for God.
David, someone I lookup to.
On the surface, I may seem nonchalant and unaffected. However, deep inside, I keep questioning myself. Why must it happen?! I can't find any acceptable reasons to why this must happen. I don't want to but can't help it to agree with manfred.
"Life IS unfair." perhaps this will be the most suitable answer to it.
How cold I may seem to be. You know how it's inside.
2nd Day at The Poh's residence
The swanky Poh's residence with a rich ambiance of the korean culture is only now left with Benji, Aunty Choy and me.
Benji busy playing his WOW with X-Japan(a bit out of place, lol) playing in the background. Just like ordinary devoted mothers, Aunty Choy's busy doing chores and getting everything back in order. Me, sharing the great music by X-Japan, looking at Aunty Choy working arduously in and out the living hall and the kitchen .
Now, Benji suggested to watch Death Note 2 and I am just looking so forward to 6.45pm. My gosh.. I am so ecstatically filled with anticipations. Simply can't wait for the next 2 hours to turn into 2 seconds.
Well, this is what always happens when you bunk in your friend's house.
And when you have nothing better to do, you sleep late, you do crappy stuff, you bum around and kill time...
Right now, I am sitting in one of the cozy corners in the room thinking hard of what to type about. At least I won't allow my time to be wasted in such "retarded" way.
(Apparently, I am trying hard to concentrate and feel for this entry, but this serene atmosphere here is seriously henpecked by incessant snickering of a person beside me and ceaseless dialogues of the TV drama that's on. Haha.. You know who you are=pP)
Frankly, many thoughts are flowing in and out of my brain. Imagine cars in the bustle city street, caught up with heavy traffic jams and with resounding horns sounding. You won't understand the rattling sound that's tormenting me. Every unavoidable night, my mind's constantly and continuously bombarded by many questions of my own. There are just so many things that happened which words just couldn't simply replace it. Well, I am not trying to say that it's not possible, rather, such problems are eternal. I thought.
Well, I guess that's why most of the dreams I had were not at all sweet but facing full of perils and searching for ways, breaking out.
p/s: My results are out and it's not better then my previous grades. Especially journalism theory tests, it has always been my greatest undoing. I just couldn't seem to be unable to score any grade higher then "that". Well, guess more work are unavoidable then.
Infuriating
What does it take to begin a relationship with God? Wait for lightning to strike? Devote yourself to unselfish religious deeds? Become a better person so that God will accept you? NONE of these. God has made it very clear in the Bible how we can know Him. This will explain how you can personally begin a relationship with God, right now...
Principle One: God loves you and offers a wonderful plan for your life.
God created you. Not only that, he loves you so much that he wants you to know him now and spend eternity with him. Jesus said, "For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life."1
Jesus came so that each of us could know and understand God in a personal way. Jesus alone can bring meaning and purpose to life.
What keeps us from knowing God? ...
Principle Two: All of us sin and our sin has separated us from God.
We sense that separation, that distance from God because of our sin. The Bible tells us that "All of us like sheep have gone astray; each of us has turned to his own way."2
Deep down, our attitude may be one of active rebellion or passive indifference toward God and his ways, but it's all evidence of what the Bible calls sin.
The result of sin in our lives is death--spiritual separation from God.3 Although we may try to get close to God through our own effort, we inevitably fail.
This diagram shows the great gap that exists between us and God. The arrows illustrate how we might try to reach God through our own efforts. We may try to do good things in life, or earn God's acceptance through a good life or a moral philosophy. But our good efforts are insufficient to cover up our sin.
How can we bridge this gulf?...
Principle Three: Jesus Christ is God's only provision for our sin. Through him we can know and experience God's love and plan for our life.
We deserve to pay for our own sin. The problem is, the payment is death. So that we would not have to die separated from God, out of his love for us, Jesus Christ died in our place. On the cross, Jesus took all of our sin on himself and completely, fully paid for it. "For Christ also died for sins...the just for the unjust, so that he might bring us to God."4 "...he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy."5 Because of Jesus' death on the cross, our sin doesn't have to separate us from God any longer.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life."6
Jesus not only died for our sin, he rose from the dead.7 When he did, he proved beyond doubt that he can rightfully promise eternal life--that he is the Son of God and the only means by which we can know God. That is why Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth and the life; no one can come to the Father except through me."8
Instead of trying harder to reach God, he tells us how we can begin a relationship with him right now. Jesus says, "Come to me." "If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me... out of his heart will flow rivers of living water."9 It was Jesus' love for us that caused him to endure the cross. And he now invites us to come to him, that we might begin a personal relationship with God.
Just knowing what Jesus has done for us and what he is offering us is not enough. To have a relationship with God, we need to welcome him into our life...
Principle Four: We must individually accept Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord.
The Bible says, "Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God."10
We accept Jesus by faith. The Bible says, "God saved you by his special favour when you believed. And you can't take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it."11
Accepting Jesus means believing that Jesus is the Son of God, who he claimed to be, then inviting him to guide and direct our lives.12 Jesus said, "I came that you might have life, and have it more abundantly."13
And here is Jesus' invitation. He said, "I'm standing at the door and I'm knocking. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in."14
How will you respond to God's invitation?
Consider these two circles:
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Self is on the throne
Jesus is outside the life
Decisions and actions are solely directed by self, often resulting in frustration
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The person sees Jesus' influence and direction in their life
Which circle best represents your life?
Which circle would you like to have represent your life?
Begin a relationship with Jesus...
You can receive Christ right now. Remember that Jesus says, "I'm standing at the door and I'm knocking. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in."15 Would you like to respond to his invitation? Here's how.
The precise words you use to commit yourself to God are not important. He knows the intentions of your heart. If you are unsure of what to pray, this might help you put it into words:
"Jesus, I want to know you. I want you to come into my life. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sin so that I could be fully accepted by you. Only you can give me the power to change and become the person you created me to be. Thank you for forgiving me and giving me eternal life with God. I give my life to you. Please do with it as you wish. Amen."
If you sincerely asked Jesus into your life just now, then he has come into your life as he promised. You have begun a personal relationship with God.
What follows is a lifelong journey of change and growth as you get to know God better through Bible reading, prayer and interaction with other Christians.
Most importantly, get into the Kingdom of God; get BAPTIZED.
(1) John 3:16
(2) Isaiah 53:6
(3) Romans 6:23
(4) 1Peter 3:18
(5) Titus 3:5
(6) John 3:16
(7) 1 Corinthians 15:3-6
(8) John 14:6
(9) John 7:37,38
(10) John 1:12
(11) Ephesians 2:8,9
(12) John 3:1-8
(13) John 10:10
(14) Revelation 3:20
(15) Revelation 3:20 four spiritual laws
For more information, you can check out the website at http://www.everystudent.com/features/gettingconnected.html
C'mon, =))Let's not be affect by my Jan blues. Hereby, wish yall have a great year ahead and bring all your great relationships and blessings forward to this year, leave all unhappy moments behind and move on with life. May all your resolutions come true without much procrastinations!
Well, I guess I should also see 2007 in this way, get out of the jan blues and move along.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! God Bless.
Adapted from my Friendster
This passage above must have sounded familiar to your ears; or rather looked familiar to your eyes. Well, of course if you have read my friendster's blog, it's adapted from my Friendster's blog account=)) This is just plain lazy.
Initially, for the new year, I was comtemplating to give this blog a whole brand new facade. Apparently looking at my skin, you'd have noticed that the internet has let me down=(( I went through much trouble, with the slow internet speed, sifting out a template I like and applying it. But it looks like it doesn't really like me very much. I copied and pasted the template onto my existing template and it looks really great when I previewed it. Not very long, I refreshed the page, POOF, there goes my skin; my blogskin.
Where have it "Poooof-ed" to? I serious have no idea. ( I guess it's the brower's problem)
Well, if you can see it, isn't it beautiful?
Well, if you don't, I guess you're seeing all white.
Oh, anyway, Happy 19th Birthday, XueWei.
