2007年1月7日星期日
Known to be someone who is masked, someone who once sunk deep into the shadow of darkness is now getting back to his same old self again.
You know, getting all ways to avoid and obstinately refuses to face it.
The news was broke out to me early this week. Shawn told me everything. I couldn't believe it.
Just 2 days ago, in the midweek service, the news was revealed to the rest of the teens. Emotions filled the air.
David, my disciple-group member, was diagnosed with a 4th stage Colon Cancer with only 3-6
months of blood left to spend. This piece of news that came so abruptly caught me off my guards. And to face this cruel fact that he is leaving me will never be a choice for me, never will be.
At first, I chose to remain silent about what I really feel and not letting any feelings reveal. Now, it seems like I have a need to. I am glad that this platform exist.
Feelings were hidden beneath, but the various nicknames and blog entries have dug it all out.
To some that might not know, David sat in my bible study, he watch me as I grow and search for my very own convictions. Many guidances of his were deep and insightful. In him, I found the love for God.
David, someone I lookup to.
On the surface, I may seem nonchalant and unaffected. However, deep inside, I keep questioning myself. Why must it happen?! I can't find any acceptable reasons to why this must happen. I don't want to but can't help it to agree with manfred.
"Life IS unfair." perhaps this will be the most suitable answer to it.
How cold I may seem to be. You know how it's inside.
You know, getting all ways to avoid and obstinately refuses to face it.
The news was broke out to me early this week. Shawn told me everything. I couldn't believe it.
Just 2 days ago, in the midweek service, the news was revealed to the rest of the teens. Emotions filled the air.
David, my disciple-group member, was diagnosed with a 4th stage Colon Cancer with only 3-6
months of blood left to spend. This piece of news that came so abruptly caught me off my guards. And to face this cruel fact that he is leaving me will never be a choice for me, never will be.
At first, I chose to remain silent about what I really feel and not letting any feelings reveal. Now, it seems like I have a need to. I am glad that this platform exist.
Feelings were hidden beneath, but the various nicknames and blog entries have dug it all out.
To some that might not know, David sat in my bible study, he watch me as I grow and search for my very own convictions. Many guidances of his were deep and insightful. In him, I found the love for God.
David, someone I lookup to.
On the surface, I may seem nonchalant and unaffected. However, deep inside, I keep questioning myself. Why must it happen?! I can't find any acceptable reasons to why this must happen. I don't want to but can't help it to agree with manfred.
"Life IS unfair." perhaps this will be the most suitable answer to it.
How cold I may seem to be. You know how it's inside.
what we could have been, 12:17 上午.
